Stigma

I weighed myself a couple of weeks ago. I'm under 200 pounds. I was happy to see the 199 on the scale. There was a time I would have never believed anyone that told me I would ever weight that much in my life. But, here I am. It sounds like such a big number. It sound more like guys who are trying to bulk up.
The real big deal about that has to do with the stigma that comes with being overweight in our society. I'm considered someone who doesn't know how to take care of themselves...someone that doesn't care about taking care of themselves. It seems most people think that if I cared I would do something about it and therefore be slender. What they don't see is someone who does have healthy habits and still manages to be overweight. I wish it weren't that way. But, it is. I guess as I lose more weight - I get to feel more like a productive member of society. I know. I can feel like I can manage to feel good about myself as I know I'm doing the best I can...at the same time...I have to accept the fact that those around me will still consider me lazy.